‘WHAT IF’

As soon as I hear the music
I jump on an excitement
I hit the dance floor
Get down with my silly moves
Cos’ I don’t know what else to do
Now I forget the world for awhile
Don’t wana run back to my agitated life
Cos’ I fear, what if I no longer can fight
My innocence kept me captivated for awhile
My heart rather seem quite
I freeze my assets in a fear
My heart’s step away to be seized
I'm trying my best
To let go my emotions free
Cos’ I feel trapped, and it’s bad
Thought I deserved better than this
Callous attitude of mankind
Worst then we can define
The harder approach, got me twisted
Everyone’s the same, the only things
We did to remain maintained
The differences between us
Nothing more than how we feel
Trying to make it out of dirt
However they got me thinking, what if?

'AN ANGEL WITHIN ME'

An angel with pair of huge fair wings, over the clouds
I dreamed ‘bout her, since I was a child
Its little funny how I see
I wonder if she’s looking down on me
I don’t know, I can’t see
Every full moon I look up
Search her among the stars
Just a wish, I could see her face
Wonder if she’s smiling down at me
I’ve heard ‘bout an angel
Fly down to you
When you hold on to your beliefs
I look up to shooting stars
And search for the answers
I hear nothing, just a curiosity
Wonder if she fears, it will break me down
It’s been long years, I wait for her
To come and set me free
Now I realized something, an angel’s within me.

'MY STRENGTH, OUT OF QUESTION'

Bucket full of holy water
Hope it shall wash away all my sins
Painted blue sky, filled with colorless spots
I wonder what's far beyond the surface
I gaze the sun for an hour
Climb up the top, so I can reach it
For a minute, it slows me down a bit
'Coz I can't bare the heat
Now I wait, look for an option
I was hopeless for a moment, did panic a little
Blurry vision, no clear view
Left me stifled without a clue
But my strength is out of question
'Cos I know, results aren't always perfect
One thing that keeps me back on focus
I've been shoved into the worthless heat
Think I'm getting use to it
Little sign of worry in my face
I rinse for awhile to keep it clean
Can someone please explain?
Why do dreams fade, as time pass by
Left me clueless before I notice
Hope my heart is strong enough to take this hit
Show me the place, where mercy exists.

"THE WORLD I SEE"

I see it comin, never had much
Nothin I wish for more
Doesn't matter if you have a millions
while poor seek for a piece of bread
Have you seen the size of the tears
falling down that little cheek
Can you feel an agony of that little girl
starving for few days
Dear lord, we've been voilated
Rich spending clueless
while poor doesn't have a roof over 'em
and I see 'em hopeless
How long can we go on
piece of my heart is turning cold
It's a madness as you can see
Wonder if things ever change
Poor kids on bare feet, keepin warm
on the pair of bed sheet
Rich kids driving a fancy cars
high on crack, on a back seat
Little kids stripped off their own lives
sheddin tears quite on the dark, I see 'em helpless

"Infantile"

Born on a rough side of town
What is that you fear
Something strikes like a thunder
Lost a sense of direction
He rolls his sleeves
And takes a deep breath
He had a lucky escape
Stumbled upon a stranger
Furious about something
That has nothing to do with
What you seem to believe
Why is it that
We spent much of a life, hating
Than loving someone
Who seems to care.......................................

CHANGING TIMES

Changing times, change in places
Cold places strange faces
Dry upset land
lost water resources
Struggle for food and water
Open thruth nothing but unfaithful
Sad versus bad, unpredictable tsunami
tear homes into pieces
Not just home but million heart, uncountable pieces
tough decision to make, enough we'd face
Long life to live, nothing left to feed
hungry stomach is what we see
How much further??
before we loose our will to fight
Nothing last forever
Still we see our life rolling infront of our eyes
Destined to lonely, left to suffer
time will come for everyone
Coz' everything doesn't have a sad ending
though peace comes with price
Its time to learn, the way we treat each other
Every good is overshadowed by bad
and its sad
You better watch your back
and hang on to what you get
before its too late
Unexpected birth, tears felt flames
living on slums under poverty
Are we strong enough to admit the
worrying face of the earth
Don't blame god coz' we fail to overcome sins
Its a naked thruth and everybody knows
Its a struggle everyday, so hold on
hope you keep the fight on
Its not too late
We can still look for the hidden phase,
the face of lost peace.

"The Girl Next door"

Never witnessed such a beauty
An angel faced girl
Love or hate her
Lights up the hundred souls
Whenever she passes by
She's got attitude
But I'm addicted to it
Sway away by her beauty
Stirring the emotions
I find a sense of relief
In whatever she offers me...................................

" STRANGE BUT WONDERFUL "
Wonder why my heart acts stranger to me
while I'm left confused
my heart bounce on excitement
A moment of heavenly bliss
Trying to focus but my mind trying to figure out its own ways
Harder I try to fight
deeper I fall for you
Baby I ain't complaining COs' never had this warm feeling before
Its good to be loved
when there is so much in your heart
Think I've lost my words
Never thought I'll loose control over my own heart
even days and nights turn misery
Why does it feels better then before
why happiness keeps knocking my door
Too confused yet over joyed

Wonder what is this feeling?
Wobbly heart, helpless yet dignified
Please tell me, why do I find it irresistible
think its hard for me to believe
Never thought this day will come my way
My curse is blessed
weakness turned my strength
Fighting over something never been so true
O' my baby thank you from bottom of my heart
You've change the way I see my life
in a way I always wanted to be
Never let me fall, when things get bad
yet help me hold on to my faith
Your love so simple yet defined
Think I've found a paradise, paradise in you
you'r my sunshine after the long days of rain
my lost smile after the days of lonliness
you make me believe, believe in a reason I live
Live for our unborn child, I can see it in your eyes
Quite yet so special
I can't believe I'm lost in love
Complicated yet so peaceful
I might be wrong yet feels right
The warmth on her breathe
brings me the light of hopes
When I'm completely run outta options
and wait for the worst
This is where I see myself fall on my knees
begging her not to leave.

" CONFUSED STATE OF MIND "
Hands in my pocket
waiting things to change
Its nothing but insane
Confused mind is on agony
I can't complain
misery is what I see
Love comes easy
couldn't play it right
Nothing changes
Life's turn out unexpected
I keep myself strong
Dreams turn nightmare
Struggle for survival
Heart as heavy
hard to carry on
My deepest fear
how do I explain
Eyes wide open
Searching for something
can't work it out
I'm crippled hard to move on
Saw things shouldn't have seen
Heard things shouldn't have heard
Word comes hard
as my heart left unnoticed.

Few days on hand
Working on mind day and night
trying to work something out
Hope I accomplish on time
soft fear in my heart
I pray to god, O' lord
Hope I don't fall any weaker
Here I am
My life's on a slow traffic
two feet gun on my head
Just need a second to blow
everything I ever lived for
If I find myself trapped
Should I stay strong or fall on my knees
but time's running faster
Listen to this careless wishpers
Only asset is my heart
hope it doesn't fall any weaker
Expectation is high
Hope I don't loose
My sense of direction
to follow something I thought was right
fight something I think is wrong
Hope to move on
leaving every bitter memories behind.

'DO YOU HEAR O' ME'

" DO YOU HEAR O' ME "
Handle with care, baby
its just an innocent heart
Please don't ignore this misery feelings
Touch my heart, do ya feel the heat
An unspoken heart I do not understand
Do ya hear O' me?
Thought love would be easy
But couldn't get it right
How do I ignore the fact that I'm in love with you
Am I fool to believe in what I thought was mine?
If I am not a player what can I do?
Don't know how things run
and I know time don't wait
It keeps moving on and on.............

" DESTINED TO BE WITH YOU"
I wonder what's on the other side of the world
wider then my thoughts
Everyone's watching me surprised
jealous coz' I'm in love
Friends even make fun of me
cos' they can't see and they can't feel
the way I feel 'bout you
Your eyes full of life
Your love undefined
your sweetest smile
who cares if your're not my type
Something special 'bout you
that keeps you close to my heart
I don't wana loose the sight of your beautiful face
Darlin, this is no race
Never knew things would turn this way
Do hell with all who treat as if your fault
as long as you don't loose hold of me,
Its not just a fantasy
So we've come this far and I don't wana look back
cos' I feel trapped
You will be my inspiration
the queen of my only heart
The stars and moon will watch over us
while we make a passionate love
Let's get together and make this a beautiful history
Forget 'bout the misery
No lies, lets take a flight
to the world of romance, where we belong
No tears, no fear
Forget 'bout old times
just you and me
lets create some heavenly rhyme
If you ever believe your dreams turn real
Baby, this will be the night
My heart's running faster, I can feel it in my vein
just close your eyes, you can't miss it
Don't worry 'bout what people say
just feel me, love me
God will lead us if we fail to find our way
If its ok with you, let me hold you close tonight
My heart's no drama
Even it comes as surprise for you
hope you feel it girl
Things might be little hard for you
but here I'm with you
Ready to fall on my knees
making up with every possible dreams
we've shared together, no more loneliness
When I'm in danger, you will be my protection
I can tell my life will be delicious
cos' nothing compares satisfaction when I'm with you
You give a wings, make me believe I can fly
Even under the shadow of sin
I find a little peace when I'm with you, feels I'm home.

" ME AND MYSELF "
Strong emotions hold me back
as my heart screams on agony
Life's not just a misery
Is that we?? who make it harder
little hopes but lotta fear
Strength is what I need now
Something hidden inside me
if its an ugly mistery?
Sometimes wish I could turn back time
been lost trying to find myself
Harder I try deeper I fall
Coz' shadow of darkness keeps crawling back to me
feels like needle forced deep into my heart
Sometimes I cry just to ease the pain
How do I show you
the fear of restless heart
How do I show you
the feeling of loneliness
words don't seem enough to comfort me
as I'm driven away slowely into the darkness.