"The Girl Next door"

Never witnessed such a beauty
An angel faced girl
Love or hate her
Lights up the hundred souls
Whenever she passes by
She's got attitude
But I'm addicted to it
Sway away by her beauty
Stirring the emotions
I find a sense of relief
In whatever she offers me...................................

" STRANGE BUT WONDERFUL "
Wonder why my heart acts stranger to me
while I'm left confused
my heart bounce on excitement
A moment of heavenly bliss
Trying to focus but my mind trying to figure out its own ways
Harder I try to fight
deeper I fall for you
Baby I ain't complaining COs' never had this warm feeling before
Its good to be loved
when there is so much in your heart
Think I've lost my words
Never thought I'll loose control over my own heart
even days and nights turn misery
Why does it feels better then before
why happiness keeps knocking my door
Too confused yet over joyed

Wonder what is this feeling?
Wobbly heart, helpless yet dignified
Please tell me, why do I find it irresistible
think its hard for me to believe
Never thought this day will come my way
My curse is blessed
weakness turned my strength
Fighting over something never been so true
O' my baby thank you from bottom of my heart
You've change the way I see my life
in a way I always wanted to be
Never let me fall, when things get bad
yet help me hold on to my faith
Your love so simple yet defined
Think I've found a paradise, paradise in you
you'r my sunshine after the long days of rain
my lost smile after the days of lonliness
you make me believe, believe in a reason I live
Live for our unborn child, I can see it in your eyes
Quite yet so special
I can't believe I'm lost in love
Complicated yet so peaceful
I might be wrong yet feels right
The warmth on her breathe
brings me the light of hopes
When I'm completely run outta options
and wait for the worst
This is where I see myself fall on my knees
begging her not to leave.

" CONFUSED STATE OF MIND "
Hands in my pocket
waiting things to change
Its nothing but insane
Confused mind is on agony
I can't complain
misery is what I see
Love comes easy
couldn't play it right
Nothing changes
Life's turn out unexpected
I keep myself strong
Dreams turn nightmare
Struggle for survival
Heart as heavy
hard to carry on
My deepest fear
how do I explain
Eyes wide open
Searching for something
can't work it out
I'm crippled hard to move on
Saw things shouldn't have seen
Heard things shouldn't have heard
Word comes hard
as my heart left unnoticed.

Few days on hand
Working on mind day and night
trying to work something out
Hope I accomplish on time
soft fear in my heart
I pray to god, O' lord
Hope I don't fall any weaker
Here I am
My life's on a slow traffic
two feet gun on my head
Just need a second to blow
everything I ever lived for
If I find myself trapped
Should I stay strong or fall on my knees
but time's running faster
Listen to this careless wishpers
Only asset is my heart
hope it doesn't fall any weaker
Expectation is high
Hope I don't loose
My sense of direction
to follow something I thought was right
fight something I think is wrong
Hope to move on
leaving every bitter memories behind.

'DO YOU HEAR O' ME'

" DO YOU HEAR O' ME "
Handle with care, baby
its just an innocent heart
Please don't ignore this misery feelings
Touch my heart, do ya feel the heat
An unspoken heart I do not understand
Do ya hear O' me?
Thought love would be easy
But couldn't get it right
How do I ignore the fact that I'm in love with you
Am I fool to believe in what I thought was mine?
If I am not a player what can I do?
Don't know how things run
and I know time don't wait
It keeps moving on and on.............

" DESTINED TO BE WITH YOU"
I wonder what's on the other side of the world
wider then my thoughts
Everyone's watching me surprised
jealous coz' I'm in love
Friends even make fun of me
cos' they can't see and they can't feel
the way I feel 'bout you
Your eyes full of life
Your love undefined
your sweetest smile
who cares if your're not my type
Something special 'bout you
that keeps you close to my heart
I don't wana loose the sight of your beautiful face
Darlin, this is no race
Never knew things would turn this way
Do hell with all who treat as if your fault
as long as you don't loose hold of me,
Its not just a fantasy
So we've come this far and I don't wana look back
cos' I feel trapped
You will be my inspiration
the queen of my only heart
The stars and moon will watch over us
while we make a passionate love
Let's get together and make this a beautiful history
Forget 'bout the misery
No lies, lets take a flight
to the world of romance, where we belong
No tears, no fear
Forget 'bout old times
just you and me
lets create some heavenly rhyme
If you ever believe your dreams turn real
Baby, this will be the night
My heart's running faster, I can feel it in my vein
just close your eyes, you can't miss it
Don't worry 'bout what people say
just feel me, love me
God will lead us if we fail to find our way
If its ok with you, let me hold you close tonight
My heart's no drama
Even it comes as surprise for you
hope you feel it girl
Things might be little hard for you
but here I'm with you
Ready to fall on my knees
making up with every possible dreams
we've shared together, no more loneliness
When I'm in danger, you will be my protection
I can tell my life will be delicious
cos' nothing compares satisfaction when I'm with you
You give a wings, make me believe I can fly
Even under the shadow of sin
I find a little peace when I'm with you, feels I'm home.

" ME AND MYSELF "
Strong emotions hold me back
as my heart screams on agony
Life's not just a misery
Is that we?? who make it harder
little hopes but lotta fear
Strength is what I need now
Something hidden inside me
if its an ugly mistery?
Sometimes wish I could turn back time
been lost trying to find myself
Harder I try deeper I fall
Coz' shadow of darkness keeps crawling back to me
feels like needle forced deep into my heart
Sometimes I cry just to ease the pain
How do I show you
the fear of restless heart
How do I show you
the feeling of loneliness
words don't seem enough to comfort me
as I'm driven away slowely into the darkness.

" A CHILD BRIDE "

Robbed by her own destiny, poor girl
She was only thirteen
Got married to a man in forties
legal suffering, a nightmare
Screaming painful nights
An agony of her bitter life
Soon she became pregnant
Carrying a little baby in her womb
She didn't know what to do, confused
Hasn't got a clue, still a baby herself
Its a shame, she should be on her school
Like every others, fall under her age
Spending a quality time with her friends
Learn to acknowledge, a right to her child hood
But who will understand?
Everyone blamed her destiny, she being a child bride
Everybody knows it isn't right
But nobody is willing to stand by her side
Even her parents didn't bother to think twice
But what else can they do??
Being poor was a curse, living on a hut
Can't even feed his own child
Some old rich man came and raped their heart
It wasn't the greed but wasn't a right thing to do
Thinking his baby girl will have a better life
they ever dreamed of
Now she's on a six months
Her belly's getting bigger, could notice a change in her figure
Her suffering wasn't unseen
Finally time comes, time to deliever a baby
but it wasn't easy, now there is a struggle
Baby's upside down, she on a lot of pain
No proper equipment, long way from treatment
No control over her pain
Slowly pushing her to the edge
But still holding on to the last breathe
How long would she fight the loosing battle
Finally she had to give up
Nothing you could hear, just her painful screams
that took both lives
Cos' she couldn't fight no more
Wish you could see by yourself, try picture yourself there
Damm' that will definetly break my heart
So somebody will have to point this issue
It isn't a fairy tale
But an unforgetable reality that could break you down
Wish it was easy to overrun the pain
Everyone's walking blind, corrrupted mind
I wonder when we learn to put things right
May be I can't stop thinking so had to put on writing..........

" CASUALTIES OF WAR, wOrst then We thOught "
Up and down the fast lane
the heavy rain, it hits him like a bullet
He is carrying a loaded gun

Weigh heavy on his arms
A strange captures his attention

He pulls the trigger

But his fingers don't respond
He can't hide nor he can run
he's hopeless, and he knows

The end is close
O' god have a mercy

For the sake of

Lost little eyes on the front door

My little kids waiting for me
Thinking I'll be home
Just few more days to tell 'em
how much I love 'em

Before I get lost in darkness
When he looks down

He sees a man standing on the front
Everything stops right there
Last minutes of prayers
Unbroken silence, its been a minute,

Just a thunderstorm
Wind moving fast from both directions
Eyes fixed on eachother, not even a single word
Finger still on the trigger
Unpleasent smile on their face
Cos' they can't help loosing tears
stopped heartbeat, harder to breathe
And they know it is not easy
just need a second to end
everything they ever lived for............

" ALL THAT I WANT"

All I ever wanted was you
that was the only thing
I felt was true
Never knew what was like
to be in love
I won't lie to you
I had a fantasies
And I did fell for it
Before I start to believe
Wrong attitude tricked me
out of it
Your were much more
than a friend
Not much I could have said
Lies become a part
of this life
Didn't have much of a choice
I feared, I'll loose everything
If I ever spoke a truth?

All I ever needed was you
Shivering nights, lonely fight
Hope there will be times
I see you on my arms................

"Hard as it is"

Exploitation of vulnerable ones
Sweat and blood
On every hands
Cannot stop tears running
Down those eyes
After a hard day work
Plates still empty
Children's on agony
Cos' they are hungry
Never been so sorry
And I'm very worried
One more life's burried
Beneath the ground
Where your stand
Your attitude stinks
Cos' your words are slurry
Felt the deep cut
From the sharp spear
It's hard to Face it
Cos' it's so severe.........

" GOOD OLD DAYS "
O' my good old days
How can I forget those wonderful days
left me wondering which way
My childhood memories, unfogetable sweet reality
It hurts to let you go
things getting outta control now
heartfelt endless greed
Victimised by anger
think we'r now a stranger
Life full of unbearable lies
Handfull of happiness
Ahh!! and it hurts to reminisce
Don't know how it came to this
think I'm having a nightmare
Thought would live as I wished
but shadow of curse been
haunting me since
Hard to define, deeper in my viens
Left heart no choice, but fall back.

But hey! what do I say
still remember those days
Living my life free but true way
those wonderful times playing as a kids
With some good friends hard to find
loving everything as it is
No greed, no hunger
just lived for the day
Little bed stories, lotta curiousity
A sweet unforgettable memories
funny but heavenly days
Worries a bit far I'm no catch
staring at me jealous
What 'bout that love
that you planted deep into my heart
I can't escape the fate, but
hope I'll see you someday
to restore my soul again
But hey! what do I say
still a hope, good things come together someday.